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Presence of a Son, January 17

Today, my son, Chris, would have turned thirty-seven.

In the morning, I bought flowers and put them in a vase that Chris had given. Later, I stepped out for a walk, a glorious January day—windswept and brilliant.

On the walk I talked with Chris, feeling sublimely his presence. I told him that I was on the cusp of change, ready for a new life that would last until the end.

The breeze whispered, it’s time to let go of plans, ambition, and predictability to embrace life’s boundlessness. Time to step boldly into the unknown and be present for when guidance comes—to lay aside grievances and predilections, responding to what is given.  

I thought about Chris in life: his courage, the gentleness and bigness of his love, the setting aside of “should” and shouldn’t” to pursue his dream.

I considered what I’ve always wanted. When may anticipation or expectation disappear, leaving behind life’s essence?

Surrounded by a January beauty I couldn’t contain, I heard: It’s yours for the taking, with only this moment as ground.

Happy birthday, Chris. Though you live beyond reach, your presence abounds.


Chris died in a rock climbing accident in Yosemite National Park in 2003. The following is an excerpt from my book, Freedom to Fall.

“I am going to live the free life,” Chris told friends on his last trip. He was an outdoorsman. He recognized his passion and pursued it. He knew he had what it takes. He lived simply, without fanfare. He revered nature. He was keenly observant.

Chris also meant that he was going to live life without a scheme. His life was going to be open-ended. He would go wherever life took him and partake fully in the offerings.

When Chris came to me on the second day after his death, he showed me that there are no divisions—not between life and death, being and doing, old and young. He showed me his truth. He showed me he was One.

I am going to live the free life. He meant he was going to live life without walls, in the fullness of light. He was at home in himself and at peace with the world.


Standing Still

Living from the wellspring of the soul requires standing still—to know the truth of its resonance and wisdom.

The soul is a wayfarer, bearing witness to experience, gently whispering:  Give life passage, living the freedom of love, holding the crossings of paths in light.

In stillness, the soul lifts into awakening. Through life’s fleeting nature, we traverse as one, standing our ground in God.

In Celebration

Eleven years ago, my son, Chris, died on a mountainside, pursuing his passion. On this anniversary day, I reflect on the blessing of his presence—God’s precious miracle.

God may take a life but never the love, which is the gist of relationship. What brings joy in another is invisible, eternal.

The light of Chris has known my grief and helped me heal. To become whole again avows our bond, while granting God’s calling.

Chris encourages me to live in essence, staying true to my vision. His voice has the tenor of life; he is a child of my heart.

I feel Chris close on his day of rebirth—in an aura of sacredness, in a spirit of celebration.

Morning Praise

I have embraced this life with all my heart, explored the breath of Earth, and still I long for more. The world has not bequeathed awareness of my Creator.   

But from a precipice of crystalline panorama, wisps of cloud have caught my eye through shards of rainbow color, beyond Earth’s reckoning. 

Before my mind can ponder, I leave this temporal sphere to soar, whereupon God, with sparkling laughter, catches me into the deep, buoyant net of Heaven.  Home in Thee, my Lord; faith has no bounds!   

Alone, I climb to Earth’s far edge and leap to pristine wonderment—until together we ascend, praising God as One.          


To order a copy of my book, Freedom to Fall, the story of a son who lived without compromise and died following his dreams, click on the appropriate link above.

The Grace of Time

This is a rewrite of an earlier piece, more as a poem:

Moving with momentum through the still frames of circumstance, life acquires grace. Through time’s orchestration of ever-changing tones, I step to the threshold in a spirit of participation.

With God as Witness, I ask how best to serve: performing, listening, accepting, traversing, or simply giving love?

Life is magical when lived in stride—to feel God’s guidance, to live to see the light.

With time as teacher, I learn patience and surrender. Through time’s ever-presence, movement becomes seamless.

To move with time is to honor God’s gift. When circumstance prevails, there is a sense of something forgotten—until I remember: Keep the momentum. Go forward with grace.